I’m supposed to be on an adventure, but I cancelled.
Sometimes life just gets the best of you and you gotta say, “hold up, pause…I’m taking a break.”
That’s what I did.
It took a long time to get to the point where I wouldn’t feel guilty. Or as guilty anyway. I won tickets to this event. I never win anything. It’s a beautiful day for it and I’m not there. So I still feel guilty.
But I’ve learned to say no once in a while. Whereas 10 years ago, I would have went and been even more exhausted and stressed out.
Maybe I’m just getting lazy.
I don’t know.
I just know I needed a pause and some good old family time.
My daughter has been dealing with some health stuff. She’s fine. She had a procedure on Friday to figure out what has been going on and there is nothing worse than watching your kid, your grown-up baby being wheeled behind hospital doors.
I pretty much had a global mommy meltdown. Ugly tears, mascara streaming down my face, people staring. I hate that. I had to call my husband at work so he could talk me off the ledge.
So the thought of an early morning and all day Sunday event was just too much.
Besides my son’s last basketball games are today and I would miss those too. I love watching him play basketball. And my dad is the most devoted fan and he will be there too.
So you see, I had to take a ME time timeout.
Actually this is ME time too, just a different kind. It took me a long time to learn that.
Or I’m just lazy and getting up at 6:00am on a Sunday sounded awful…even if it meant adventure 29 could be checked off the list.
There’s always tomorrow…
But today, I enjoy this beautiful day with my family.